The overwhelming feeling of emptiness is one that I know better than myself at times. It is all consuming. Not that the feeling is dependent on one person or thing...A multitude of variables go into my positive energy's demise.
80/20; 95/5; 99/1
The natural law of numbers--Equilibrium.
Effort exhorted into something that is causing more harm than good is completely unnecessary. There is no reason one should be so enthralled in such hasty acts of poor judgment. As a curious human being--we refuse to follow our innate sense of life direction sometimes. Though, if we act upon our natural reactions...life would seemingly be a lot simpler.
90 percent of the time we know the right answers within the first few seconds of seeing or experiencing something. Though, rational thought kicks in and essentially prolongs the process whose end result we have known from the start. Funny...isn't it?
Looking back on my life's biggest mistakes (or learning experiences as I prefer to call them) the scenario played out exactly how I felt it would. Whether it takes a couple days...or a couple of years how it ends is (most of the time) exactly as I predicted.**
As I sit here facing the inevitable..the only person I have to blame is myself. Having known the right answer all along and not have acted is a crime to oneself and the other parties affected (directly and indirectly).
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
Any experience that provides a memory is one worth having (so I am told).
Life confuses the fuck out of me. Maybe I need to shut the brain off and turn the mind on.
**Indigogen
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