After the breakdown

Well, Last week I was a hot mess to say the least. I think I took about 2 weeks off of life in order to regroup and figure out what the fuck is going on. Well, I am still not too sure as to what is going on...but at least I am feeling mildly better about myself.

It was very strange..all things from my past suddenly came to a close. I freaked out on my parents...not at them..but on them. Had a total breakdown. Woke up after my usual 17 hours of sleep that the depression I was in caused.

I learned that working out deeply affects my psyche...for sure. I need those endorphins. I keep getting chronic headaches and it kind of blows. When it rains it pours. Feast and famine. Etc.

I miss all of my friends..but I have recently realized who is really important to me...and who is just frontin'. It is really important to come to terms with this.

Moving forward is just as important as remembering the past.

As a side note: Ryan is absolutely amazing. He has helped me so much with everything...and I cannot say thank you enough for his kindness. He is truly a beautiful person...and I cannot wait to see where life takes us.


I mean...if someone could love that...they have to be the kindest soul ever.