a threeandahalf year cycle?

"...the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..." -Jack Kerouac, On the Road

I will officially be done with my undergraduate career in less than 12 hours. Still waiting to see how this project turns out. I am feeling quite insecure about the entire ordeal. Sleep has become a commodity this week. I think I am up to around 6 hours over the past three days. Not including tonight of course. Maybe that is why my coping skills and patience are suffering. That, or this overwhelming feeling that I am trapped in some kind of glass box. I can see the promise land, but there is this barrier keeping it out of arm's reach. Not saying that tomorrow I will instantly have the capabilities to break through. But, I will feel a hellofalot closer than I do right now.


"Success usually comes to those who are too busy to be looking for it." -Thoreau

This evening I got my first real consulting job. A goal completed. Every time that something like this (a scratch through a number on my list) occurs...it seems rather uneventful. I should be celebrating right now...bright eyed and smiling until my cheeks hurt. Sheer exhaustion and mental fatigue have set in, priorities have shifted and life has been thrust upon me. As much as I would like to take it in...you just have to accept, embrace, conquer and move. I know that I am one step closer...but the inevitable seems ohsofar away. Perhaps that impatience is me just embracing the defining characteristic of youth. With eyes burning. Time to recharge.