Chris Howard "Designing Your Destiny:" Day 1

Today was my first day of Chris Howard's seminar, "Designing Your Destiny." I must admit, it was a little bit different than I initially anticipated.

I walk into a foyer at the Hilton in Universal City to find a large population of older people (including one lady rocking out a moo-moo). This rather uncomfortable situation posed a rather interesting position for me. I was looking around to see my friend Barham (my friend that offered me the $5,000 ticket to this seminar), but couldn't find him in the rather unusual group of characters. Now, don't get me wrong: I thought some of these people were pretty cool. But, while waiting in the second line to register as a guest (a rather annoying scenario trying to find my way to the sign up)...I had SEVERAL people cut me in line. Given the content presented in these seminars, I was rather taken aback by the previously mentioned rude behavior. You'd imagine a room full of life coaches would understand how to wait in line. It was moderately shocking to see that they did not.

Anyway, after passing through what seemed like the gates of hell (perhaps it was my lack of glucose that shaped my perspective), I finally entered into a candle lit room. Now, I am not going to lie to you saying that all of this excited me. I would say that the moments that passed over the previous few days were full of more excitement and anticipation than when I entered the conference. I was there for a reason so I consciously decided to make the best of the day regardless of the fact that I thought this entire seminar seemed like bullshit.

It took me a good 3 hours to get into what the class instructor was saying. In all honesty, there was so much information being thrust at me I really can't even recall any details in the lessons. Good thing I have a 200 page guide book to refer back to! ;) Back on point--There were lots of hugs, congratulations, hypnosis, letting go, absurdities, visualization, etc. that we went over today. I learned how to decode my dreams. People were crying. Imagine gospel church meets self-help. We laid out our "Bullshit Story" of limitations, made a complete mockery of it and let it go by ripping the very paper it was written on and throwing it as the confetti to enhance our celebration of new found personal freedom.

I was guided through stories of what inspires me in both my professional and personal realms. I learned the two different worlds that I was living in and how I had to make the conscious decision to life in one or the other.

I was hypnotized into this transe where I saw my own destiny if I didn't live out my passion and my dreams versus the realm where I did.

I have no idea how to describe what I went through--Perhaps this illocial rampage will make a bit more sense after tomorrow's seminar. All I know right now is everything I once thought and believed was all my perception of my own reality. Now that I have broken though the boundaries that I placed on myself, my potential is much greater than I ever imagined. I went from being in a closed box to this entity of everything and nothing all at the same time. I can feel in my heart of hearts that something happened--There was a definite change in who I am now and who I was this morning. I am just not sure what happened or how I am going to move into action.

Until tomorrow...